The Big Day....11th May 11

Around April-ish time frame - 2006 - IIT Kanpur put up a cycle rally till Moti Jheel, Kanpur (11.4 km from IIT K) against the reservations (anti-caste based reservations in 2006) and thousands of students were up for it. I and my friends too were a part of the crowd. And we dared to ride our cycles on the NH-91 highway to Moti jheel. We (people from IIT K, and other nearby colleges) were addressed by none other than -- Chandra Mohan Thakur (IIT K ME , Class of 2006, Y2125). The enthusiasm in his voice and the confidence to talk to thousands of people (needs guts! and you should be interesting while talking) was commendable! He has always been the people's man! A cheerful guy who loves talking and was always around people - either comparing, debating, or meetings ;)

So, our IIT Kanpur days (his and mine) went on in discussion about his future goals- he has always dreamt to be an IAS only to take care of his state - Bihar (now Bihar and Jharkhand), his country. There are very few people who join UPSC for doing something for the country (may be i m wrong in the statistics), and he was amongst the few. But, reasons dint permit him to thrive for his goal, instead he went on for a lavish job @ Hindustan Unilever Limited. Earned a lot of money, success and fame and one fine day realised- is this really me? Is this what I wanted to do in life? Was this the only success story I have to tell my kids about? It took him three years to get out of the job and to get back to his dream. And he made it.. made it so well.. that he achieved a great rank in his first (well, almost) attempt.

I remember I was just checking www.upsc.gov.in and there was this new link.. results..upsc..final..gosh..my heart beat stopped..dint move until I saw his FULL NAME and roll number in the list!!!!!! When he came to know the result, it obviously took time for him to absorb- cuz he was confused with his performance - happy because he made it..and little diasspointed as he could not get IAS. Nevertheless, the happiness his family (and I) is going through made him feel like a BIG MAN already! Cheers to your success.. you made your parents' dream come true.. I am sure everybody who knows you is proud of you on this success. Hope we are able to see the change you plan to bring.. not only for your state but also for the country!

Matar Paneer..Chef Neyha :D

Fun it was.. yes.. guys... i tried making a typical Punjuu dish.. all by myself.. and guess.. it was nice.. tasty.. teekhii.. :D

Matar Paneer.. airtel did become rich by 100 calls atleast ! Anyways.. the dish was an outcome of me being challenged by a close frnd.. Pandey and I did accept it very well :)
Saturday night dinner was finally on! Got related ingredients from nearby store at IIT K and then started the entire process around 9:30 pm. Thanks to Taha for getting the peas out of their house.. :)

The first tadka comprised of garic, onion and ginger ..green chillies too .. and yes it was in pure desi ghee.. speciality of we punjabis u know.. :) lottsa of it is in the store house for the guests... finally when the tadka got done in around 20-25 minutes time.. i added the tomatoes.. salt.. jeera... haldi... and let it move on gas for sometime... til the gravy smelled rich and tasty :P.. (thats what my supervior of saturday Mrs. Ojha tod me).

Yes not to forget the fried paneer pieces by her.. she always want them like that...
Finay when i felt that the tadka was done.. I added peas with lil water and let them soften for some 5-10 minutes.. and then finaLLY added paneer.. and rest of water.. and let it on the pressure cooker.. the first whistle was the signal that it was all done..

btw i dint make just that.. i managed the dough too and chapattis thereafter..
and we all sat to eat that!

It was mind blowing :P

A lovely experience.. i want to be a cook now! my second passion after PhD

Nostalgia

End of another semester at IIT Kanpur.. One batch would move out this May.. another batch would enter in August.. This cycle reminds me of my Gargi Days.. Gargi is a famous college in South Campus, University of Delhi ( for those who dnt know). Cried like anything when I left school.. that I dnt wanna enter college.. it will be damn professional.. But cried even more after leaving Gargi.. I have made the best of frnds at Gargi .. enjoyed my life to the fullest.. Not giving damn to even the most serious issues... Life has been fun .. with a group of five..known as NDPV- square--- who always enjoyed every moment.. had fixed seats.. second bench corner most.. and booked everything from microscopes... to slides.. to turns during experiments. Three years passed by like three days.. Today, it gives me immense pleasure to having taken the right decision to chose such frnds.. at the same time it makes me nostaligic when i even get to think of it.
I still have the T-shirt five of us bought..which mentioned clearly our motto of life..
" If life is a waste of time.. and time is a waste of life.. then lets get all wasted together to have the time of our lives.." -- we loved getting wasted together for three years from movies.. to barsita.. to our fnd dibbi's wedding... to bitching.. and mast drives.. and I hope we continue doing the same..
Cheers to the lovely times spent at Gargi with some of my great frnds.. God Bless you all!!

If only......

Seems u r a part of it!!
Today, 2de i bet my life.. u have no idea.. what i feel inside... dnt be afraid to let it show... for u never know... if you let it out... I love u.. u love me.. A great song.. ends with love will show you everyth... The western part of the world has this ability to make some of the great movies.. and show it as if we r a part of it...
Why cant the time stop when we want it to? why cant we always do what we like?? Why cant we always be with our loved ones??? I can leave you with so many why's n hows... But the only anwer comes is to a achieve one's goals.. one's dreams we dnt always get the time to do what we always like to do.. or are comfortable doing.. Weird it may sound.. our own dreams take us away from our loved ones! But then we still want to do all that just to make them happy... who r no longer staying with us physically..

Anyways the central idea of the movie is ofcourse not what i mentioned!! Watch it to know it..

Its so gud to let ur love know y u love him/her?? If only you let him know what you have felt since the time he has been with you.. only then would you have done your job of loving him. The movie is surely for the one's who love somebody.. but also for those who have never fallen in love.. you would really want to fall in love after knowing what it feels.. and this can be felt only if you watch the movie..

so just fall in love.. its never too late!!

Hurt me!

some weird reasons of me gettign a hairline fracture cals for a bed rest. Weird no! Only when u r on bedrest you wanna work like dogs. you want your love to be with u, to pamper you. you wanna be close to ur mom and what not!! Guess life's like that! Its like craving for the impossible..
These days m spending my time.. with just myself.. with little touch from my love...


Expectations are taking me nowhere!! Just make me sad everyday.. you feel more like that in illness... but the best part of getting ill is to behave like mature souls around (if u aint one).. step on the path of being independent (so called) .. and yeah gain sympathy by your guide to bunk lab!!!
Hopin' to get well soon.. and start hopping aroun' here n thr!!

God bless me! :-)

Relations

Saturday night.. when my frnds back in Delhi celebrate the time pubbing around.. I sit back.. and ponder upon my future. IIT has made me good in a number of ways.. at the same time . I have lost the kid in me. My future still fades away as I think of it... dunno where I ll be.. May be that is the case with all the women in India!! One has to settle with an average career and a happy married life or leave the happy part of marriage and have a great career.
It has been tough for me till today to handle my relation and my career. I want to excel in both, but as my premoniton says.. I cant achieve both at the same level. Compromises are a part of my life.
Lets see what life has in for me.. ciao

Professionalism

I m often held back..by professionalism....just think about it..infact i cnt think about it..cuz its around me..al the time..where i m rite now..that place is full of professional ppl..the ambience kills me at times..and i m dead..dead to hell/heaven...but...again...i get up again..just to fight back...just to sustain...to remain alive..I am not too sure how far wil I b able to manage ..but I ll try my best..my level best... thats about it...n thats for 2de!!!